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I still live with my parents

Beatrix reads well. She’s wrapping up first grade with several chapter books on her shelves and a natural curiosity about all-things written. This includes clothing. A few days ago, I dressed Ollie in a onesie passed down to me from a friend. It has a cute message.

I Still Live With My Parents

It’s a nod to the reality many kids live with their parents well into adulthood, forced by economics or extreme helicoptering. Beatrix doesn’t get this though. She read the message I Still Live With My Parents and had an entirely different interpretation.

My oldest and youngest permanent tenants, occupiers of my heart...

“I still live with my parents,’ she read. Then, in the high, sing-song voice she reserves for Baby Ollie, she cooed to him, ‘Yes, you do! You didn’t die so now you live with mama and dada! You still live!”

She didn’t seem to think it was an odd sentiment to put on 100% cotton. But it made me catch my breath.

I wonder how much she understands about our family history—those little ones we lost along the way, including two babies before she was born and two after. She’s flanked by four losses, this shining little girl who somehow made it through, surrounded. She still lives with her parents. Us.

Those tiny ones she won’t meet on this slope of heaven still live with their parents, too.

I suspect—and maybe I’m wrong because I’m not there yet—all children live with their parents, forever. Even when launched, even when on the other side of the world, even when buried at the age of 32 or 57, they will always, always abide with us. There’s no sloughing them away no matter the circumstance.

And so I can humbly say it, too: I still live with my parents.

Super-fast dizzy spinning happy screams

What better way to hail summer? We see it on the horizon, we wave wildly. Come here, you beautiful thing. Let’s get this started with a smile or eleven.

For the fifth year, we visited Lakeside, a Denver institution. Is it Denver’s fanciest amusement park? No way. It’s unpretentious and slightly grubby. It clings to mid-century signage and is proud of being more than a footnote in Denver’s history. It’s more than a footnote in our family’s history, too.

I love documenting our Lakeside nights with photos, comparing them to years-past. It’s a wonderful way to watch the kids grow. They’re a daring bunch with strong stomachs. I couldn’t be more proud.

~2013~

~Happiness~

~Glee~

~Delight~

~Satisfaction~

~Anticipation~

~Delicious~

~Thrill~

~Memories~

~Smiles~

~Sweet~

~Buddies~~

~Daring~

~History~

~Aglow~

~Merry~

~Dizzy~

~Magical~

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Lakeside Night 2009
Lakeside Night 2010
Lakeside Night 2011
Lakeside Night 2012

The invisible rainbow

Yesterday, we drove to school through a rainstorm. I went a convoluted route because I had to drop off kids at two schools instead of just one, which meant I approached the K-8 school from the east. To the west, just past the lake, was a rainbow. I had Ryley snap a few photos with my phone, which he hated. I ruined his enjoyment of the rainbow by making him into my Instagram-moment monkey. Mental note: Teenage boys who want their hands on your smartphone 99.99999999% of the time prefer sunlight refracted by water droplets in the shape of an arc.

The arrow points helpfully

Everyone else admired the rainbow sufficiently. After dropping off the kids, the little guys and I drove toward home. The rainbow lasted for a really long time, bright and thick, with brilliant delineated colors. Archie said it was following us. I agreed.

This morning was sunny and clear. The Color Kittens would say it was ‘wild with sunshine.’ Teddy chirped from his seat, “I see a rainbow!”

I looked around and asked him where he saw the rainbow.

“In the sky!” he shouted.

He must think I’m really dense, not aware rainbows are commonly found in the sky. But we also see them when light refracts through etched and beveled glass on our front door. It’s a giant prism. This happens every late afternoon late spring through early fall, dependent on the sun’s position in the sky. I’ll glance down and see a rainbow on the back of my hand or my foot. The little kids try to rake rainbows out of the carpet. They let the rainbows paint their faces. Every color exists in those patches and splotches.

When the sun sinks low and away, they’re gone.

“I see a rainbow!” I should shout from my seat. Puzzled, others might look around and ask where. On the floor, in my hair, on the wall where Archie scribbled, on my mashed potatoes, undulating over a balled-up sock, on the front of the third step in the staircase. Don’t you see it? I do, those flashes of beauty briefly intruding. I rake them up with my eyes and fold them inside.