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An update and some random things…

1. Zippy Eggs. Success! Success! They looked nice in the baking dish. They arrived at MOPS piping hot, thanks to my Pyrex Portables casserole transporting system–a fancy bag with a microwave insert. Within minutes of its unveiling, Zippy Eggs were history. I sampled some, and I thought it wasn’t too shabby.

2. Lee has been on a quest to bake a perfect loaf of bread. He has gone through the trials and tribulations of sourdough–he made sourdough starter. It sits like a science experiment in the back of our refrigerator. Growing, reproducing, building small villages, fighting in wars and holding elections. The entire cycle of human history is happening in a jar in my refrigerator. That thing literally pops and bubbles! It is scary and it makes me nervous–all that life in the fridge. The sourdough experiment hasn’t gone 100% well, but Lee hasn’t let that stop him from learning more about breadmaking. Last night he decided to bake a normal loaf of bread, no sourdough starter involved.

The loaf looked very nice and breadlike. Football-shaped. We were excited to see it rise like it was supposed to–it was going well. It smelled heavenly while in the oven. Once done baking, we let it sit for a few minutes, but it was a torturous wait. I had the butter poised on my knife forever, it seemed…Lee sliced off the heel, I passed on that (I don’t eat heels). He sliced the next piece, and I dug in. Yum! Something was odd, though. Something was floating around in my mouth. Hard. Smooth. Hard. What could it be? I took the mystery object out of my mouth–it was white! I felt around with my tongue and noticed that one of my molars was chipped! On bread! All those years of chomping on ice finally caught up to me, I guess.

It doesn’t hurt at all. It just feels strange. Lee thinks I need to call the dentist. I don’t want to. I would rather stay at home and look up the Latin word for “fear of dentists” online. Ahhh, it’s “dentophobia”…I should also look up “fear of the telephone”…It’s “telephonobia”. Put it together and you get “dentotelephobia”.

Passing it on…

The words tumbled out of my mouth before I realized. I couldn’t scoop them up and stuff them back in, pretending they never rang through the air. The words were out and they made her so happy…

She is a fellow preschool mommy. Her daughter is in Sammy’s class. She and and her husband contribute countless volunteer hours at the preschool. They own a small catering business and sandwich shop and they have been known to donate enough food to feed the preschool army and the moms, dads, grandparents, and friends too. They are generous people.

For years they have been on an adoption waiting list…until last Tuesday when they met their newborn baby boy. The news came out of the blue and they were not 100% prepared. This morning she brought her daughter to school and her new son into the classroom–everyone was excited, surprised, and very happy for this family. The baby is tiny! The big sister was glowing. Mom looked tired, but happy.

And here is where the words came tumbling out of my mouth: do you need any newborn boy clothes? I have a ton! And I do. With four boys, I have baby boy clothes coming up to my eyeballs, stored away in the laundry room. I keep hanging on to them, thinking that maybe, someday, I might need them again–part of me is happy those days may be behind us, part of me can get wistful and wish for another.

She immediately said “yes” to the offer of clothes, no hesitation at all. She looked relieved.

This morning, when I got home from the schools and the store, I got out a bin of newborn clothes. I held up my favorites in front of me and I could see my newborn sons again. I could see Ryley in the yellow and blue striped one-piece outfit. Sammy in the elephant covered onesie. Tommy in the blue pajamas with little red and green cars. Joel in a bright striped one-piece outfit with a smiling caterpillar. The clothes were so tiny! So perfect!

I can sit here and picture dressing my newborn sons. I see their umbilical stumps still attached, their skinny, stiff, startling movements. The socks that would never stay on their little red newborn feet. Those memories are still vivid and powerful enough to make a lump form in my throat. I don’t know if I will ever be so blessed again.

It is comforting to experience these strong memories of my sons right now. I do not need a pair of pajamas to remind me how big Ryley’s feet were, or of Tommy’s skin tags. The newborn boy clothes are bagged up and by the front door so that I can remember to take them to my friend and her new baby. She will take her own mental snapshots of her son in these clothes. Maybe he will wear Joel’s caterpillar outfit on the day he smiles for the first time? Or the ducky pajamas when he rolls over.

This newborn boy needs clothes more than I need to hang on to scraps of fabric and snaps. I know that. A few years ago, when I gave away all my baby girl clothes to a cousin’s daughter, my mom said “God will honor your sacrifice.” She knew it wasn’t easy for me–it was like giving up on ever having another daughter. Four sons later, I can laugh about how silly it was to wrap up my dreams in baby pajamas.

So today I willingly say goodbye to many things I have been holding hostage–in my laundry room and in my heart.

Zippy Eggs, continued…

Yesterday, after reading my confession that I suffer from Snack Stress, Lee (hubby) said “you really think you are going to kill someone with your casserole?”

I said of course not! Nobody is going to die from something called “Zippy Eggs”. What an embarrassing obituary that would be. I simply tried to express my irrational fear of cooking for people. How very deep that fear is…

Perhaps I should have said that I simply wrap a lot of myself into the things that I do.

Right now, Zippy Eggs are resting comfortably in my refrigerator, waiting to bake for 45-60 minutes in the oven.

Here is the recipe for Zippy Egg Casserole:

1 pound pork sausage
1 (5.5) ounce package seasoned croutons
1 1/2 cups shredded Cheddar cheese
1 cup shredded Swiss cheese
1 cup shredded pepperjack cheese
8 eggs
1 pint half-and-half cream
1 1/2 cups milk
1 1/2 teaspoons dry mustard
1 tablespoon minced onion
salt and pepper to taste

1. Place sausage in large, deep skillet. Cook over medium-high heat until evenly brown. Drain, crumble, and set aside.

2. In a lightly greased 9X13 inch baking dish, arrange the croutons in a single layer. Layer with Cheddar cheese, Swiss cheese, and pepperjack cheese. Top with cooked sausage.

3. In a large bowl, beat together the eggs, half-and-half, milk, mustard, onion, salt, and pepper. Pour into the dish over the sausage. Cover, and refrigerate overnight.

4. The next morning, bake in an oven preheated to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C) for 45 to 60 minutes. Let sit for 20 minutes before serving.