I rarely read novels.
I give full credit to my last semester in college, when I read 35 books of alleged literature. Each book was paired with some sort of writing assignment. Compare, analyze, contrast, dissect, eviscerate, pry, cross-examine, presume, broil, persecute—I did all kinds of unmentionable things to literature until the act of reading was stripped of relaxation and pleasure.
Within a year of graduation, I was a mother. With babies and small toddlers and preschoolers and grade-schoolers running about, my reading energy has been conserved for telling the tales of bunnies and trains.
There was the occasional slip-up, like when I read the first five books in the Narnia series in about three days. Then I’d go back to my non-reading ways. Of course I read newspapers and magazines during these years—but never anything with true substance or meat*.
A few months ago, I rediscovered short stories. I could read great novelists in five-page bursts and still get a complete literary experience, including character development and resolution. It’s a little like speed dating. Ten pages of a John Cheever story are enough to tell me not to read anything with his name on the spine.
That’s how I decided to read Carson McCuller’s The Member of the Wedding. I read a couple of her short stories and it made me want to investigate a little more.
I am proud to say I read it this past weekend. I read a novel. Nobody made me. Didn’t get the idea off a syllabus, or purchase it for $31 in a college book store. I am writing about it, but you can’t make me analyze the symbolism of the red-headed soldier, the orange dress, the red playing cards, the sunsets. Oh, no. You can’t make me notice how Berenice is a personification of justice and reason, and how John Henry represents innocence—but also the confusion inherent in childhood, and oh, why does it end the way it ends? And you can’t coerce me into thinking about other Southern Gothic novels of the first half of the twentieth century and how they have themes of death, redemption, mysticism, class and race struggles, ambition, regret, sex, amorality, judgment, and rebirth running through them, pinned on a clothes line from Louisiana to Georgia, hung by the descendants of slave and slave owners, suddenly thrust together in a new society, set against the backdrop of World Wars and economic depression.
Oh, no.
I’ve been trained well.

