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Drowning here in summer’s cauldron*

We spent several days at my parents’ home in Grand Junction. Over the mountains and through the desert, to Pop Pop and Row Row’s house we go’ed.

One of my favorite spots on the planet is their backyard. Every season there is lovely, but the summers are luscious. It’s barefoot-in-the-grass, kaleidoscopic, Russian Olive sweet-scented, and almost too hot.

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My mom bought a triple-wide slip-and-slide, complete with mini-rafts and racing flags. The kids used it to keep cool. We put it on the grassy hillside for extra speed.

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*Song made not-exactly famous by what band? You win nothing if you know. It will simply confirm we had the same cassette in our tape decks during the summer of 1987.

Alive

I rented a doppler from Baby Beat on Monday.

Rather than wait for it to be shipped to me, I opted to pick it up in person. Their headquarters are only about 15 minutes away.

I loaded the kids in the car.

“Where are we going?” they asked, again and again as I negotiated the very convoluted route I plotted in my head, thinking it would be fast.

I told them I was picking up something. And I didn’t want to talk about it. End of discussion.

You’d think I was on my way to pick up a load of black market cigarettes to sell out of a battered camper in a dog track parking lot.

The doppler was waiting for me by the front door, housed in a plain white box. A white bag with the bottle of ultrasound gel sat on top. I put it on the floor in front of the passenger seat and tried not to look at it at every stop light or every time I had to make a right turn.

I felt like a fraud for having it.

Yes, my pregnancy is confirmed by a medical professional. Yes, I’ve seen a beating heart thumping away. But that was a few weeks ago and history has taught me that a beating heart on one day doesn’t mean it will be beating the next day. Been there, done that, and not only do I have the t-shirt, I have the ball cap AND the commemorative shot glass.

After Costco, I drove home. I left the doppler in the car for several hours. It was only concern that it would melt that made me bring it inside. It sat on the printer for awhile. My heart trembled each time I caught a glimpse of the white box. Finally, I decided it was time to try.

I laid down, squirted some goo on my lower tummy, and began to search.

Nothing.

Just my thundering, outrageously fast heartbeat, my former breakfast, and the whooshing sound of a lonely wind.

I told myself it was still early. I am on the borderline of doppler capabilities. Surprisingly, I felt no panic. So unlike you, I thought to myself. I put the doppler back in the box and slid it under my bed. I’d try again next week.

But this morning, I heard it calling to me from under the mattress. I had to try again. Calmly, I prepared my tummy and switched the little machine on. I heard the same noises and thuds. I heard my heart, which was much calmer. And then, right before I was going to give up, I placed the hand held unit on my chest and pressed the microphone down a little harder, with both hands.

And there it was.

Cold water

So much can go so wrong in five minutes.

Saturday night we were making a simple dinner of grilled cheese sandwiches and sliced apples. The kids were outside playing. I had just sliced the sandwiches and put them on plates when Aidan and Beatrix began to scream. I ran to the door in time to hear Aidan shriek that Beatrix had been stung by several wasps. Beatrix held out her arm toward me and I scooped her up and ran her to the faucet. My first instinct is always cold water. A child’s eyeball could be dangling out and I would say, “Get that thing into some cold water!”

After a minute or two, I took her into the living room with a bag of frozen corn for her hand. We sat on the couch and snuggled. My husband went outside to find the source of the wasps. He reported they had built a small nest in one of the hollow legs of the gas grill. From Beatrix-level, it was quite easy to see. She must have reached out to touch it, not understanding the danger.

He decided to kill as many as he could using his patented High Pressure Garden Hose Nozzle Blasting and Foot Stomping Method. They had just hurt his baby girl and mercy wasn’t on his mind.

The kids sat down with their sandwiches and the bowl of apples in the kitchen. In the next room, I continued doling out the sympathy and Beatrix continued soaking it up. Suddenly, all five of the big kids began to scream.

I thought of my husband. I was sure he was being attacked by swarming wasps. I jumped up and ran around the corner into the kitchen where I stopped dead in my tracks. There was blood, everywhere. The floor, the cupboard doors, the refrigerator, the oven door, and Joel, standing in the middle looking ashen. His hand was deep red. It was my turn to shriek, “What happened?”

“Joel was cutting an apple!” they wailed.

I saw the large butcher knife, covered in blood. I yelled for Lee, who heard the kids screaming and thought the wasps had somehow gotten into our house. He tumbled inside, saw Joel, scooped him up and ran for the bathroom to run his hand under cold water. The kids were hysterical. Sam, who hadn’t witnessed the knife incident, thought the wasps were in the house so he ran to the basement to hide. He thought all the blood was from the wasps.

I grabbed towels and my husband put pressure on Joel’s thumb. The cut was severe and deep. There was no question regarding stitches. It was obvious. After a few tense seconds of haggling over who was going and where exactly, my husband left with Joel and Ryley, who went along to help. As a veteran of hand stitches and a mature kiddo, he would prove to be a steady and amazing presence at the Children’s Hospital urgent care that night.

Left to calm down the kids and clean up the scene, I got to work. The kids were deeply worried for Joel all evening. I found blood in the most astonishing places, which proved how violently it erupted from his little thumb. I had to mop the floor several times. The work was a blessing, though, because it kept me from wallowing in worry. I knew he was going to be okay.

Four hours later, they arrived home. Joel has seven stitches in his four-year-old thumb and it is wrapped in a thick splint which resembles a cast. He endured several shots in various points around his hand. The cut was deep and long and his thumb has to remain immobilized for several days. In ten days, he’ll get the stitches removed.

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When he walked in the door, he said, “Mommy, I feel great!” Me too, kiddo.

My husband reported that Joel announced he wasn’t going to use knives until he was sixteen. I can live with that.

Now, a couple of days later, his only complaint is itching. Beatrix’s hand is fine, too.

Writing about it is my cold water.